Temerarious

Hey all,


So I am either making the best decision of my life or I am making the worst decision of my life. I recently embarked upon a journey with the Fighting Trojans of University of Southern Cal. (USC). Upon graduation, I will be in the hole approximately 60k in addition to my 25k balance on undergraduate loans and I am pursuing a Master in Teaching / Urban Education.

Now, my thought process was as follows: I applied and got denied from 10 Physical Therapy schools. I am in a dead-end job at the moment and I needed a Plan B with regards to my career path. One of the most treasured aspects of the job I currently have is my interaction with patients and educating them about their bodies and way to rehabilitate themselves after injuries. So, I figured, "Hey - maybe I'll go into teaching". So, I applied to this online program through USC and got accepted right away. After hearing 10 "NO's" in a row, a "YES" was definitely a sweet sound and a lovely way to soothe my wounds.

But, now, I think I am regretting my decision. I am scared I took the wrong path. With the amount of teachers that are being pink-slipped across the entire country, I feel like the constricted and over-saturated field of education will not have room for me, and I will still be pigeon-holed into the same technician job that I have now...except with more debt.

I was hoping that by having a Master's degree under my belt, Physical Therapy schools will find me more desirable and be willing to take a risk on me. I was hoping that this would be an example to them that I can handle education pass the Undergraduate level and rise to meet the demands of a graduate program. I also figured that a good therapist must be a good teacher in order to effectively treat their patients, so doing a Master's in education would not be too bad of a choice.

But I think I misled myself. I think I may be in way over my head. I'm scared. Have nowhere to turn and am broke.

Ok... i'll be more honest - i'm scared straight out my britches and I want to curl up in a ball and rock myself to sleep all the time.... well maybe just most of the time...ok ok only SOMEtimes.... but still!

Sigh. I guess I will just continue down this path and see where it leads me. I am sure there is some lesson embedded in all of this educational mayhem and I just hope I make it out to the other side.

I guess what I am trying to say is that I was trying to be adventurous. I was trying to make moves for myself to get ahead in this world. I was trying to make my own destiny. And to tell the truth, its scary as hell. For once, I don't have all the answers. I don't have the advice of someone who has "been there" - "done that". I am alone in this endeavor and I have to face the consequences and challenges alone. Being adventurous is teaching me lessons in confronting fears, blazing my own path, and finding answers in the uncertain.

If anyone else if going through something similar, know that I am here with you - trying to dig my way through and I feel your struggle.


I am SavvyBoricua: Mind, Body and Soul and this is my blog.